[Ayiri]

have u ever felt like u can't take your life anymore? 'n that u've got no motivation to continue the everyday horror? this kind of feeling appears in my body 'n mind first time, so i got no idea how to take it... i always thought that i'm strong enough to overcome any difficulties in entiry life, but... unfortunately i'm not. u know, the most interesting moment in this situation is that there are no such awful problems or smth. it's just not my life and i've got no opportunity to change or improve it. i just don't want to live this life anymore... might sound kind of scary 'n, u know, for me too. anyway, i should have written this, otherwise it'd eat me starting from my will. the case, which frightens me the most, is that this feeling lasts the whole day 'n not even once stopped tearing me apart. so i should say one more thing: if it won't stop tomorrow, i have only 2 ways of this nuisance removal 'n i'd have to choose...